My Mind is a Facist Regime

So apparently, my mind is a facism regime. I demand complete discipline. My voice of reason is routinely sent the Gulag. Any external concerns or moderations are attacked viciously and repeatedly with prolific irrational thought processes and self-battering terminology. Weakness is not tolerated!

I don't have much choice: whoever made Critical Race Week and Earth Week on the same week didn't consult my schedule first. I have too much on my plate. However, this is kind of the last pull, and then I plan on doing far, far less next year.

But here's the thing: I only get one shot at this. Law school lasts three years, and my first year was recovering from a serious and threatening surgery. I could hardly (as my grades reflected) show up for class, nevertheless get "involved." And I believe in getting involved. I am fully committed to the notion of community, but I don't think communities function unless people take positive and tangible acts towards interaction and progression as a unit. I agree that you can do this through social interaction and non-structured activities, but I think that working within the instiution is vital to community.

Hence law school.

But I'll have job/clerkship interviews much of next fall and a clinic next spring and then guess what? That's it! No more law school for the rest of my life!! I want to look back on my time here and know that I made the best of it in a way that serves my own notions of social goods. Some of the most important people I've met here have been through my organization work. I didn't want to do Journal and I don't regret it. I didn't do moot court and I don't regret that either. But if I did nothing, I would seriously regret it. Especially because I was blessed to enter law school with a unique and amazing class/section. So it's hard and I'm overwhelmed, but I'll look back on my time here and know that I lived each moment with purpose and a complete zeal for my experience here. However, I have to complain.

On that note, I officially don't have time for finals.